My Greatest Fear

Most of you should know about my greatest fear all ready... But for those of you who haven't here it goes

My greatest fear, Spiders. Small ones im ok with, just a little freaked out. However, the bigger they get... my fear increases... Big Spiders such as Tarantulas, Bird-Eating Spiders... i freak out big time, i cant even look at an image of footage of them... even fighting giant spiders in video games send me panicking.

The scary thing tho is... I HAVE actually seen a real Tarantula at the age of 4. We were at a Museum Exhibition called: Venom [not the spider man villain] the picture had a snake on it so we assumed it was mostly snakes and other reptiles... then we came to the spider section... and we saw a group of people looking at a guy behind a table... and he had a real tarantula crawling across his hands... and i broke down in fear... so i freak out pretty badly at big spiders... no matter how hard i try to look up pictures i stop in a second...

for some reason i can draw them... my only source was this screenshot on resident evil...

well there u go... *shaking*